When I decided to quit drinking, I felt like the idea of not drinking EVER again was kind of overwhelming. If I live the average lifespan of a male in this country ,that is 17855 days. This is probably why the AA mantra is " one day at a time". I don't have to be sober for 17855 more days, I just have to be sober for 1 Day. Thinking about it like this is much more manageable.
BUT, shame is something I will not allow myself to wallow in. Shame pulls us down to the places where we don't take care of ourselves. Shame takes our strength. It took strength to quit, and I am strong still.
So from now on I will carry my 1 day coin with me. I have only been sober a day, forever. And I know that on day 17854, I will still want to drink,( and that's OK) but I won't. I only have to be sober for one more day.